XXx1000 Lives & 1000 KnivesxXx (STORY) Part 1

How many lies can this soul take,
before no one alive will this forsake?
I've been thrown down, broken & bleeding,
all of the pain inside noneless than reseeding.
From cracks in my porcelain skin you'll find,
I've completely & simply lost my mind.
Covering as much as I can with make-up,
yet hoping someone will force this heart to wake up.
How disgusting, how hopeless I seem to feel,
never knowing this agony could feel so real.
But I hear the whispers of 1000 lives,
as the crimson stream flows from 1000 knives.

Hoping one more carve will lead to demonic release,
laughing & now butchered voices won't seem to cease.
Even though I cry out in utter desperation,
they know it's my fault...
I resist everything EXCEPT temptation.
I thought if I walked on the dark side I might,
become more aware of the creature at night.
So I slipped away and what a fool I've become!
From Angel to Monster, a true saint undone.
No more roses or butterflies, no bright colors to shine.
Just blacknesd & madness, trust that the blame is all mine.
No longer whispers but the screams of 1000 lives,
as they fall into the depth from 1000 knives.

There's no turning back now, on this road of desire.
I travel deeper in hell, but the flames grow higher.
marked forever by the loss of pure innocence,
I was drafted to Lucifer's Army of Resistance.
Once so strong, now unsteady, unable
Oh! How I long to go back! But I can't...
I'm unable.
Hiding in the dark, knowing the white light will burn.
Rolling the dice hoping the tables will turn.
I already miss all of the people I've loved before.
But they're no longer the people I used to adore.
They've transformed into the souls of 1000 lives,
Now drowning in the abyss of 1000 knives.

Well, something wicked this way comes.
And it marches to the beat of the Devil's drums.
I cautiously look over my shoulder to see.
Frightened by what this prescence maybe.
It's not a being at all, but something worse I fear.