I am at a loss for words

I am at a loss for words
My feelings are in a mix
I wish you were here
I don't want us to be over

This is a poem for you
Actually it's my suicide 4 note
Just for you

Didn't you know how much I loved you
You were and still are my everything
You said you where ever they find you
You will have a grin on your face Over

Well when I'm found I will be bleeding
I know this because I'm not going to last the
week
Not without you

I'm standing here staring at this life
Thiking of death's kiss
So cold, so fridged
Nothing like yours
So warm, so safe

I am alone with this life
I know I can't go on
My note to everyone else will be hand written
something someone can throw away
But this, this will never go away