Please Take Care of My Final Good-Bye

God if your there, can you please tell me why...
Why did I crush my happiness, my life?

God if your there, Can you please let me know...
Why oh why did I hurt him so?

God if your there, Are you punishing me?
I did it to myself, can you not see?

God if your there, can you help me out?
I know I don't earn it, but it's not for myself.

I am worried for someone who meant everything to me
I was happy, he was happy, but it just couldn't be.

And if it could have been, I will never know
because I screwed it up and now hes gone for good.

The timing wasn't right, I came to find out;
Work was bad, home was bad, he got kicked out.

I feel like I did him wrong and I know it was unfair.
I didn't know what to do, I hope he knows I still care.

Every morning he woke up wondering if his Love would still be there the next day.
Every morning I woke up wondering what I was going to say.

I confused him minute by minute, I truly didn't mean to.
Finally having enough, he decided he was through

He said "lets not end this bad but with an I love you"
I will never forget those final words Good-Bye that was long over-due.

I'll never know for sure why I let him go
I ripped my heart out but in the end it was my say so.

I never wanted it, I don't understand it, I hate it!
So I will ask you this one thing...

God if your there, please listen to me!
Will you take care of him?
He has no one to confide in.

God if your there, this part is very important...
I ripped his heart into pieces,
and I'm afraid he'll do something stupid

God if your there, remember I owe him everything...
because he happens to be the biggest part of me.

God if your there, please share your love, if you don't mind.
I want to, but for me there will never be another time.

* I know it's a pretty crappy write but at the time I was upset, I never talk to God either, by the way. but when you are alone there is no one else to talk to . So really it is me asking questions to myself.*