Hit Rock Bottom

I've hit rock bottom,
You don't even know how it feels,
To stand between darkness in its blackest corner,
And all that's fake becomes real.

I've screamed from the top of my lungs,
While everybody ignored.
My soul's been broken so many times,
Another bout of depression I cannot afford.

Sometimes I doubt myself.
Perhaps it is just me?
Maybe the problem lies within my soul,
Damned by a defective personality.

I don't know,
I honestly can't say anymore.
Who I am, or what I am is unbeknown to me,
A mysterious area to be explored.

I've hit rock bottom,
But you will never know how it feels,
To wish you had never loved or trusted anyone,
And instead had a heart of steel.

*We might think it's easy, but discovering who we are is the most difficult thing in the world.