XXxI've Hurten YouxXx

*this is dedicated to my friend tubby, whom is like my brother. i just wanna say im sorry tubby. i didn't mean to hurt you. i love you very much. i hope that when you read this, you'll forgive me. well, here goes my apology to you.*

I'm sorrry for hurting you,
I didn't mean for it to hurt.
I know I'll hurt you again,
but I'm not sure when.
I never meant for this silence,
I never meant for the pain.
But my life is a screw-up,
just a living death game.
It's just an escape route,
something I can do.
But you don't & will never approve,
sorry you don't like my method.
But my blade is my best friend,
someone who's always there & never leaves.
The pain I hold inside,
is one I cannot take.
Blood seems to fall,
from the cuts I make.
It's a happy place for my nightmare,
somewhere I feel safe.
It may not be good,
but it helps my pain.
I need this to help me cope,
nothing more, than to hang from a rope.
As I die tonight,
please don't worry.....