Fear.

Don't make me relive the hell
don't make me play the game
of scarring my body once more
and leaving me in pain.

I'm screaming on the inside,
trying not to shout
and my entire sense of security
is gone without a doubt.

five years of torture
and not telling a soul
has made me uneasy;
sometimes i lose all control.

and bottling things up,
keeping them burried deep down
eventually becomes overwhelming
and in my fears, i begin to drown.

when the simple touch of a hand
becomes unbearable and disastrous
all because they were selfish
and left you helpless on a matress

you know you're not okay
when you hear the word "rape"
and you hold yourself so tight
because your fears you cannot escape.

don't make me relive the hell
don't make me play the game
of scarring my body once more
and leaving me in pain