Good God, I can relate to this.
Especially your ending lines,
"there is only one thing that keeps me from hating you
haunting memories of sunny days and smiles
quietly going insane i smile to myself...
we were happy once "

I know what you meant in this poem. You just explained what I never could!
Brilliant mate.
Absolutely talented.

5/5, very good job.
Very sad, but still well spoken.

-Osi