The Mother And The Child (Away With The Flies.)

I'll pull out the first aid box
Nurse your bruised knee
The whole time
You can barely look at me.

I'll wait in the car
As you face all your fears
Hold your hand when your nervous
Wipe away all those tears

But what about me?
I'm only seventeen
Just a child staring through another girls dream
Denied youth, denied most things,
But what can I do?
How can I just give up on you?

I'll pretend to be your perfect daughter
I'll act as if I'm fine
And even if you lose your temper
I know that you're mine.

My absent Mother
The one I pray for every day
I just want to live my life
But every time I stay.

Scare me, Bruise me, Make me feel small.
Mother I don't care I'll take it all
I know that you don't mean it somewhere in your heart
I know that in there somewhere I have a small part.

But Mother I don't think I can do much more
I feel pushed to the absolute brink
It's as if you do it purposely
Just to see what I will think
You seem to do things with intent
You seem to like seeing me broken
And when do I get past it with these words left unspoken?

How do I just carry on when no one understands
It's like your my addiction I just want to hold your hand
No matter how much bad you do. No matter who you are.
I love you so much I know I'll never, ever go too far.

Mum I'm so sorry
Watching you self-destruct it's killing me.
I don't know what to do, I can't go down with you.
I can't take your hits with a pinch of salt
I can't laugh it off when it's all your fault.
I can't, I can't, I can't stay here
Living in the shadows
Living in fear.