I opened my eyes

I close my eyes and see you
I see you there laughing
I see you smiling around people.

I open my eyes and I see you crying
Crying by yourself
Alone
Isolated
Alienated

I close my eyes and see you mucking round with your friends
Having fun

I open my eyes and see you shouting in frustration
Bashing the brick wall in anger
In grief

I close my eyes and I see you running around playing sport
Scoring a goal
Jumping up and down in excitement

I open my eyes and see you reaching for a razor
I see you lift your skirt up and your sobbing
Shaking, you put the razor on your thigh and you slice through
I see relief that hurt is gone.

I close my eyes and see you in class working hard
Then the bell rings and you walk out laughing with your friends at lunch time

I open my eyes and I see you sitting there draped up against the wall crying
Blood running from your thigh
The razor dropped on the floor

I close my eyes and see you flirting with the cute boy you had a crush on
As he asks you out on a date
Smoothly, you say yes
Then as soon as he walks away you squeal excitedly with your friends.

I open my eyes and I see you have a rope in your hand and you make a noose
You are calm yet empty
You feel as though you have nothing left to live for

I close my eyes as I see you at a rock concert moshing
Screaming at the band
Jumping up and down as high as you can

I open my eyes and see you put pen to paper
�If only someone had opened their eyes.�
You place it on your bed

I close my eyes and see the teacher walk into the classroom
You walk in late, you are quiet and reserved.
It�s the end of the day and you say �Goodbye�
Not simply �See you tomorrow!�

I open my eyes as you walk away from school quiet and calm.
I race after you knowing something is up.
I ask you �Are you okay?�

I open my eyes as I walk into your room.
I see the note, the noose ready
And I see the razor.

I opened my eyes only just soon enough.