I am known as abusive
not in its conventional term or common usage..
but i love till it hurts only me
this form of self mutilation must be invisible cause SHE cant see
abuse equates some kind of pain
but in this case I'm the only one left crippled and lame
so when my eyes hurt from cryin
or my heart hurts from hearin HER lyin
i allow my love to intimidate me not to leave
thats why i say I'm abusive only i abuse ME.....
