Torn

I made mistakes
when I already knew you
I thought you'd never find out
because only god knows how bad I feel about these mistakes.

And now it's too late
you left me
with reason
but I'm sorry
I don't know why I did that
All I know is that I love you so much
that now
even my tears are crying.

I can't live without you, you're the source of my life
But I blew it
it feels like it's the right time to move on to the afterlife
but I don't have a rope
I don't have a sharpened blade
and pills don't effect me.
all of this made my punishement even worse
but maybe I deserve it.

It's time to stop writing
It's time to stop crying
It's time to stop living...