Holding onto the Words

What if I loved you?
What if I had tried?
What if I had said something?
What if you cared?

Then.

Maybe it's worth it...?
Maybe it meant nothing...
Maybe it was a mistake.
Maybe I knew it was.

But

I should have told you to stop
I should have been sorry.
I should have stayed here
I should have been careful

Now

I wish things had been different
I wish I could have done something
I wish nothing was going on
I wish life weren't so complicated

Just to be sure..

But I can't rely on the what if's
I can't rely on the maybe's
What I should have done
and what I had wished would happen.

So that's why

I need a concrete answer
I need a reason to stay
I need a way of knowing...
I need you to be honest.

Because I just don't want any more questions.