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by brie kelly wise Dec 6, 2009 category : Sadness, depression / other
Here's the day I hoped would never come My shoes are one size smaller Hard to get around, to take a step forward Why must I still wear them? My hair is two inches longer Hard to keep away from my eyes, to see anything Why is it so hard to reach for the scissors? I'm three pounds heavier Hard to fit in these clothes, flaunt myself Why can't I wear them one more day? My scars are four hues lighter Hard to see them, to remember Why do I still pull my sleeves down? The circles under my eyes five years deeper Hard to conceal, to feel any younger Why do I still slave over the mirror? My room six years empty Hard to see, hard to feel Why must I keep going back? My family seven generations bigger Hard to keep track, to love so many Why do I still feel detached? My father eight months sober Hard to forgive him, hard to trust him Why does he still look the same? My mother nine years into the Bible Hard to understand, hard to believe Why does she still seem the same? My sister ten seconds behind the wheel Hard to see, hard to realize Why does she still seem ten seconds old? My husband eleven seconds gone Hard to feel happy, hard to feel myself Why must I still watch the door? My friends twelve years happy Hard to not envy, hard to not respect Why must I still search for them? My daughter thirteen years old Hard to trust, to disconnect Why must I relate? My body, my smile, my life, fourteen years older Hard to accept, to let go So why must I still feel fourteen?