Everything I ever wanted just seems so far away.
But yet it seems everyone has it and they didn't have to pay.
Im tired of being told that I got to go through, in order to be bless.
While everyone is doing what they want, and they ain't got to go through this mess.
They don't have to go through the hell, and trial, the manipulation and the fears.
They ain't got to go though the hurt and pain, the suffering and the tears.
Then they tell me, Settle down, your exaggerating it's really not that serious.
But what do they know, they ain't living this life, what! Do they think Im delirious?
See they want me to loose my mind, loose control and just pop.
But then if I do, they'll shake their heads and all their mouths will drop.
And then I'll look like the crazy guy that just lost his head and can't get it back on if he glued it.
And everybody sits and stares at that man shaking their heads saying "I knew it"
But what's funny is that they think their smarter and greater then that man!
But what intelligent person, would mess with a guy that walks with his head in his hand!!
I know Im screaming and need to calm down, but please don't tell me again.
Because that's another thing, everyone worry too much about everyone else sin.
We try to get all the splinters out other's eye, while we got a 2 by 4 in or own.
We try always to put others on blast and give correction so our faults want be known.
Me personally I just take life as it come, rather north, west,east,or south
If I wanted to watch what I say, I'll take my eyeballs out and put them on my mouth.
Now Im a very humble person, and respect is a must!
It's just that being in this environment; Im loosing faith and trust.
It's like Im climbing a mountain, and been climbing so long but the mountain keep growing.
It's like Im making plans and schedules and goals but they keep changing without me knowing.
It's like I try to do well, and tries to live right, but still evil I see.
So I try to hide myself in presence of good, but still evil finds me.
It's been the one's that look up to me that have kept me though many days.
They light a path so I can see it want be like this always.
