A vision within the flames

My eyes i opened
only to find
i was lying upon desert sands
it was night
but within the sky
there was neither stars nor moon
and i am confused
with no clue where I am
all around me it was strange
so very silent
but in the distance
a light
danced upon the land

it seems like forever
that it taking me to cross
this barren land
there are so many times
that I have lost all hope
and I just want to sleep
to be buried beneath these drifting sands
but still I carry on
always yearning for that light
that dances upon the horizon

and finally with no warning
I found myself confronted by the light
it was a fire of so many colors
a picture of beauty
within my mind
and there next to it
there sat an old man
who greeted me
with a smile upon his face
" ah finally you arrive
my old friend
I have waited here for you
for so very long
so come sit here nexto me
and warm yourself
within the light"
and as I went to sit by his side
I realized for the first time
I finally felt at peace
all the pain and confusion
it was gone
and I closed my eyes
in its beautiful release

I don't know for how long
I just sat there
before the old man
spoke unto me
"open your eyes my only child
there are many things
of which we need to speak
your time here so quickly passes
and too soon
you will have to leave
but there is something
that you need to know
and I pray my words you will heed."
so as I opened my eyes
and looked into his
I saw they were at peace
but before my lips
could think of a thing to say
he smiled
and then spoke unto me
"don't say a single word
my only child
first there is something
you need to see
turn your eyes unto the flames
look within deeply
and you shall find the one
which you seek"
and as I turned my gaze
unto the flames
wondering
what did this old man mean
but within the light
she was lying there
in her bed, fast asleep
her beautiful face
just so serene
and for ages
I could just sit there and stare
but eventually I tore
my gaze away
with tears in my eyes
to him I did say
"old man
why do you show me this
don't you know this vision
just makes me want to weep
she is so far away
and she loves another
so why torment me so
and make me dream
of a love that will never be"
then he turned his gaze
towards me
and in them
there was a flash of sadness
as he said
" don't be such a fool
my only child
why do you try so hard
to yourself deceive
what makes you think a heart
can only love one person
can you not hear the truth
within her voice
every time that you two speak
dont listen to the words
they matters not
by their very nature
they only hide
what is so plain to see
the truth you can hear
within the silence
and how these words
come to be"
and for a long time
I just looked a the old man
but eventually
there was something I had to say
"what you say may be the truth ,old man
but I am doubtful
give me one reason
why she still even cares
I have hurt her times in the past
I once promised to stay
only to vanish into the thin air
I then told her
I would always be her friend
only to try forget her
and not speak to her
for years instead
so why should she believe
a single thing I now have to say
is she not afraid
that time will prove me a liar
yet once again"
and this he answered me
"listen to me carefully
my only child
there is some truth
in these things you have said
as how could she help
but to still be doubtful
and afraid to trust
any words that you speak
but in matters of the heart
there is no rhyme nor reason
the mind cannot decide
what anyone will feel today
though this I promise you
this chance is your last
so dont you dare throw it away
as though she might again forgive you
you would never be able to
forgive yourself the same
so my only child
you must be strong
and not let whats unimportant
ever again
get in your way
for I promise you this
there is no reason
for you to be confused
or afraid
nor so sad you want to weep
for I will tell you simply
she still loves you today
and in the end
that is all
that really matters
if you can but understand this
your every demon will be slain."
and then I found
I had not a word left to say
so away from the old man I looked
and gazed into the flames
to see her lying there
as plain as the day
and for ages
I just watched her sleep
staring at her beautiful face
thinking of everything
the old man had to say
as I lost myself
within the vision of the flames

for ages I just sat there staring
watching her sleep
when the old man words
snapped me from my reverie
"it is now time
my only child
for you to depart
the morning is coming
and from this dream
soon you will awake
but don't you dare forget
a single word I had to say"
and as I looked at him
I had but one thing left to ask
" just who are you old one
why did you wait for me tonight
knowing so well
the truth of which you speak"
and he smiled at me and said
" come-on now my only son
by now I had thought
you would have guessed
I am that voice
that has always whispered inside
and this flame is but the reflection
of your souls sacred fire
you try so hard to hide"