Love or Lust: Foolish Longing

(I know it's a little juvenile for my taste lol, but bare with me)

He makes me feel alive inside
But he has the tendency to hide
A passionate friend and a confident lover
He has all of the qualities on the cover

Although I do not completely trust his words
He pays me compliments with every verb
He is so much different than my true love
Even though my love is the "purest" of doves

My infidelity is killing me
But I cannot be satisfied instantly!
My desires matter as well
Though love has not noticed; it cannot tell
How desperate my mind is for the unknown
For the mystery of a life "grown grown"

Without future promises of a planned life
My desire is not to be a wife
But loved with no ties or strife

No matter the path I shall take
It's my decision to make

(Take it from me, this is not a good state of mind or living. Everyone will get hurt in the end.)