I need you but i use something stronger

You cant stand to look at me.
the thought of me you cant take.
i make bad choices and you hate me.
i want to stop so i can have you still.
but its too hard...
i need it...
I hate myself inside.
the drugs i cant deny.
the pains so strong.
i do it just to make it...
make it through the day.
i cant stop, cant stop
this madness i feel inside.
Even if i need you too