I always wished you'd somehow say you're sorry
Imagining us alone, free to talk, without worry
That something bad would come from it
Ending everything I've managed to mend
Now, I wish I could give you my apology
For not loving you like I thought I did
I never trusted you like I should have
Always had a worry lingering inside of me
Perhaps you loved me but I couldn't see it
Anyways, it doesn't matter now, does it?
I still don't trust you the way I should
Which is why I can't say these words to you
Since you're back in my life I have fought
Against myself, going away from those thoughts
Thinking I could shake the dreams away
Erase every memory of you and me
But as we got closer and closer
It was easier to let my mind wander
Then all of my self-control slipped away
And I found myself fallen in love again
Which is why now I notice everything you say
False hoping you'd come back to me one day
But you've got your own love now
Someone who trusts you and knows how to love you
I try to be your friend in full control now
Hiding my feelings, or at least I try
It's so hard; I can't stop the trmebling
Whenever you're around me
I have to do my best, you know
Because if you notice that, I'm doomed
Still I don't trust you enough
But I love you, and I'll be there for you
Thouhg I'm not sure you'll be there for me
