Once again words fail me….
The pain inside has built up to a staggering level
I feel like screaming to the heavens…
I try to release all this built up emotion, but every attempt seems to have a blockage..
I want to say I blame you… but deep down I know that this wasn’t your fault or your choice. You didn’t choose to get cancer a second time and you didn’t choose to loose the battle.
No one understands how any of this makes me feel…
It doesn’t matter how I try to say it… the words never come to me
You’re an angel now so I don’t even get to talk to you anymore
It baffles me how people can seem so unaffected by losing loved ones…
Surely they must hurt deep down inside too…
How are we meant to be ok with what’s happened?
How is the emotional pain meant to fade?
How have I done it in previous cases?
It hurts so dam much every passing moment
I can’t smile half as much as I did
I hope you can forgive me
I wish I knew how to let it all out
Nothing is making sense
My words are failing
There’s nothing else to say
