Suicide

Everything would change if I do this kind of story
The life of my personal family and my own friends
It would be a big impact to them for what I done
To my soul, my personal body and my own life.

The silence of my room filling up to my mind
My time comes to hurt my hand and my body
Tearing the flesh that emits my own blood
I feel the pain because of my fear and sorrows.

My blood is now running towards my own hand
The intense feeling that I feel is now at my mind
I hope it would be the end for me, but suddenly
The memories of a girl began to flashed in my eyes.

It hurts to know that even then life was never be a fun
Because I know there is something wrong to my self
For being me, for being in this terrifying condition
How should I overcome it, how I should face it.

Some of them say that suicide is a personal sin
This is not the right thing to do to face the problem
But I think this could be the fast and easy way to do
To end my unfinished business in this hilarious world.

How can I look forward coz I am miserable now
But no one can realized what was going on to me
I could never love her now, till the end of this page
I think that I have cracked, I can't take it anymore

I want to scream and I just want to cry loud
But I can take the pain of death inside at me
Instead I've chosen this other path of my life
This other way to go before my mind is lost,
How I wished you'll remember this kind of note
To realize what it does and give some sort of hope
When I'm gone, and you're wondering why
There is so many excuses, the reason behind,
My choice of suicide.

(i commited two times)