Forget

My first sad Poem.. I'm not used to the words, so it's hard. Please vote!

Darkness unfolds and surrounds me.
I only feel loneliness.. pain.. fear..
I don't know whats wrong with me.
Why do I live? Why do I have to be here?

I can't stop thinking of this girl.
Sometimes I wish things could go back. Back to how they were.
I just want to forget about it.
The love I used to have.. No.. The love I still have for her.

I think back on the days.
I was so ignorant. But there was such bliss.
I wanted to make her happy.
I loved her. Her love for me was my only wish.

I still feel the same.
But something is different. My friends ask me whats wrong.
I tell them my thoughts.
I tell them it's over. I'm giving up on the love I long.

They respond to me in different ways.
Most say to keep going. Some say to give up.. I should.
I thank them for their help.
I wish I would stop. If I would just forget her, I could.

It would be so much easier,
If I knew how she felt. If I had any hope at all.
I don't know and I can't ask.
I can't talk to her. I'm afraid to call.

I just decided to give up.
I didn't want to, but I tell myself there's no possibility.
There's no chance for us.
It'll never happen. Me and her. We can't live together happily.

But why and how did this happen?
Why do I give up? Why don't I still try?
Maybe I'm just afraid of rejection.
Maybe I'm a loser. Maybe I should just die.

Forget about it.
Forget about everything. Forget all about me.
It doesn't matter.
I don't care. Just please let me be.

I don't know what's wrong with me.
Why do I live? Why do I have to be here?
Darkness unfolds and surrounds me.
I only feel loneliness.. pain.. fear..