12.21.08
boy of my dreams
I'd chased him for weeks
asked me to be his,
I agreed whole heartedly.
1.22.09
call the hospital
it's not a happy birthday
much at all.
connect me to her room.
2.11.09
she's gone.
what else do you want from me?
2.14.09
valentines day
not so sweet.
roses die, my mom just cried.
I'm not in the mood for love.
March
April
May
I don't know where these months went.
honestly.
sorry.
6.08.09
I'm not in love
you don't respect me
I don't know why I'm with you
goodbye.
6.14.09
He knows who I am.
everyone else lost me
way back in February.
think Im learning to feel.
6.25.09
he left me.
six states away,
but there's still a month
before I'm forced to say goodbye.
8.18.09
family makes me smile
happy birthday to me.
got away from this town.
no sound from the phone.
9.02.09
high school starts
you'd think it'd be a shock
but instead it just feels right.
deep breathes, it'll be okay.
9.06.09
his birthday
no way in hell I'd call
forget him.
more time with family.
9.20.09
finally say hey,
wish I hadn't.
he knows just how to get me.
A boy asks me out
I say yeah.
sorry, I don't know the date.
we only last a week.
I didn't fall for him.
10.25.09
Jake says hi.
his brother.
I cling to him,
my only lifeline
connects me to my heartbreak
11.10.09
I don't think of him anymore
Jake seems separate
the conversation I need
my heart takes a turn.
December flies by.
jakes coming home.
12.21.09
my how things change.
12.25.09
merry Christmas.
miss you gram.
1.1.10
hello 2010.
what will you bring me?
please be kind.
