Living in Fear

I am being tormented.
I miss you so much.
I would do anything it would take just to feel your touch.

It feels like two months,
but it has only been two days.
I have never dreaded being so far away.

I have never missed someone so much.
I have never needed someone so bad.
I walk around with a smile on my face, but inside I am extremely sad.

Leaving you was so hard.
I have never cried when saying goodbye.
You know I care for you, but you are clueless how I feel deep down inside.

I love you.
I hate saying it, but it's true.
You have my whole heart and I'm trusting you to not split it in two.

I gave away so much.
Now please do me a favor and treat me well.
I would really like to enjoy my life and not have to end up in a living hell.