Dear daddy,
i know you didnt know why i did what i did
you thought your little girl was so happy
but i was far from that.
i didn't want to tell you because i didn't want you to know,
i didn't want you to worry about me,
and thats another reason why i had to go.
i tried, so hard to wipe the tears away
to push the pain aside,
and fake it another day
but the more i tried to fake it the more real it became
and now I'm realizing who Ive become isn't my name.
Cristina died a long time ago
she walked out the door with a smile
but she never came back home.
Ive felt like this for a long while
and i dont want to feel like this anymore.
the pain Ive been through changed me
it's ripped apart my heart
it's numbed my soul
Ive been heart broken;
more than you've ever known.
and as they tug at my heart
they tear apart my soul
this is the path Ive chosen
is my own way home
because on my own tears Ive choked
it feels like i fell from the top of a mountain
and I'm struggling trying to get back up
I'm not completely dead, but im badly beaten
and I'm trying not to give up.......
but these words are lies,
and Ive been hurt too deep
my heart's been too damaged
and its officially irredeemable
its killing me day by day
i guess all I'm trying to say
is i love you so much & i never meant to make you cry,
I'm so very sorry, but i just had to say goodbye
***what do you guys think**** please Tell me id love to hear*****
