I know that someday soon i will be back in your arms ... I will be awaiting that day
from the last goodbye, to the replayed hello.. You are forever the permanent hole
in my heart, though the hole will not stick it'll still be the placement for where you
can re-enter my life.. when you finally promise not to leave again.. I know that life doesn't always give you the most satisfying opportunities, but what fun would it
be if you always got what you wanted, and everything turned out perfect with no conflict along the way.. I remember this day .. a year ago .. i was watching a movie, not just any movie a scary movie, Chain saw massacre.. Something that seemed so unpredictable that would happen only in a dream. this isn't something i wished would happen, but i watched it with him, and as i first started to hold his
hand got all cuddled up in his arms .. He held me tighter then i thought possible,
maybe it was because he was scared or he just wanted to be close, who knows ..
only him. but as we watched it and hid our faces close to each others i wanted
nothing more then to kiss him, though it wouldn't be right.. This night, on Halloween
i realized i just fell for someone in the matter of 2 hours, not only that but we
spent each night texting for hours on end after that. about what, no one remembers .. mostly
about how we wanted to be together though.. and how someday it would happen
2 weeks later.. we became more then a dream, a fairytale, a lost prediction. but
i guess everything happens for a reason right. I never suspected that night
i held his hand it would go anywhere, was i ever wrong.. turns out i fell in love
with that boy. When i lost him ; i thought the odds of me getting him back are
pretty low.. kinda thought I'd be lost without him, though i was a little bit i realized
he was the half that made me whole.. while he built me up when he left it tore me down a little but he discovered the true me, let me reveal and show all i have to prove and give.. brought love into my life, and he hasn't walked away ; not yet. not ever.. i may not be the one he kisses everyday or wakes up thinking about
But i know somewhere deep in his heart he misses me and wishes me back..
I rise from my bed everyday, as much as a dread facing the crowd. I say your name, i kiss my teddy bear and i try my best just to look good, to fake a smile so maybe you'll notice me, maybe you'll see how much i miss you, and try to impress you when i have no need.
