I stay awake for days and just feeling so disgusted and ashamed,
knowing I've done you wrong so many times.
having nightmares of you crying on my conscience is excruciating,
I feel angry and annoyed at myself knowing you never deserved it.
no justice from the shit I've done to you,
I have no excuses, no scapegoat, I just did it without thinking,
I was an idiot and ill never forgive myself for what I did.
I was your prince charming turn your poison ivy,
you were my beautiful rose who I just let die,
knowing you were the perfect lady who would've made a perfect wife.
but my stupidity broke your heart and i didnt bother to help put it back together,
I daydream everyday and just replay the tears that ive dragged from you,
I just smack myself telling myself I was the worst thing that you could've met.
while you were the best thing I could ever dream for,
I guess I just wanted to be single ignoring your loving shadow.
and now i drag my feet feeling sad, disappointed and hollow.
thinking about second chances but neither i would give myself one
so ill continue dragging till the cows come home.
