Hate loving you

I hate loving you,
I hate everything that it makes me do,
I can feel myself getting closer and closer of
doing something stupid just to get noticed by you.

I hate that you know ways to make me smile,
I hate that I have to stand close to you and not
know what it's like to be held in your arms for awhile.

I hate how just a glimpse of you or a mention of your name, can make me go insane.

I hate being friends with your girlfriend, hearing her talk about you,
not knowing it's killing me.

I hate you.

To be honest, I want you more then you'll ever know..