Forever My Wonderful Boy

Its time to go, nothing to live for
And this time no hope for survival;
Unable to move, in the dark,
Paralyzed by this drug,
A knife in my had,
As if its a command,
I slice my wrist and never resist,
The blood seeps out,
Causing me to blackout;

You flash before me,
Smiling like a silly billy,
Cant help but smile back,
As always this repetitive track;
I can hear you sing,
Which is better than any diamond ring;

You lift my high,
All the way above the sky,
Forever you and me,
Together we will always be;
My wonderful boy, in my heart you'll always stay;
Never changing a thing, wouldn't have it any other way;

But now you don't feel the same,
And I'm the only one to blame;
So now I'm on my own,
Never have I felt so alone;
Its time to go nothing to live for,
And this time theres no hope for survival;

My heart begins to slow down,
As I lay unconscious on the ground,
Photos of you are beside me,
And a letter in my handwriting;

Your name is at the top,
I'm sorry I had to go, full stop;
Thank you for everything this year;
It was the best of my life, with a tear;
Sorry I wasn't there, sorry I wasn't strong,
Just always remember, you have done nothing wrong;

Its time to go, nothing to live for,
And this time theres no hope for survival;
Don't be sad as I say goodbye,
Because I wrote this with a smile and a slight sigh;
My life has been a hard one,
But that day we spent lying under the sun,
Made it all worth while,
But as it comes to an end, so does my smile,
No one but me is to blame,
As I made it all go up in one flame;
I lost everything when I lost you,
So now I must say goodbye to all but especially to you.