Another year has passed and you're still on my mind
You would think after so much time it would get easier
It hasn't
Little things remind me of you, even when I try not to
It makes me sad and that's not how I want to feel
So I decided to write again and get you out of my head
Even if it's just for a little while
My moments of nothingness make me feel alone
But I still prefer it to moments filled with what ifs and have nots
Regret is a terrible thing
Touching heaven even worse
I wonder if that was my one chance at happiness
My one chance at being complete
My fear is that it was and now it's gone
What can I do now?
I don't know if I deserve a second chance
I do know that my soul craves it
To find another love, another soul mate
Is that even possible?
But I keep moving on
It's all I can do
I have to remember to breath in and breath out
It use to be so natural
Now it feels like burden
I think I'm flawed
Broken in a way that I can't figure out
I don't know how to fix it and wonder if it can be fixed
I've forgiven you, but I can't forgive myself
So more time will pass
Day after day, it's all the same to me
I'm not who I was before and I'm not who I want to be
I don't know what I am
I'm just alone, empty, sad
So here it is, another poem you'll never get to read
And I'll still pour my heart out
