My Secret

My secret

I don't know whats wrong.
Well, actually I do,
I pretend that it never happened.
I fake all the time that I'm happy, that I'm glad.
Sure I have good moments,
But then their torn apart by that secret that's haunting my life.
Sometimes at night I cry and weep
I pray and plea so that god could forgive me.
I wish I could tell my parents,
But I fear their love for me will vanish...
I'm afraid my parents wont trust me
Or look at me the same...
For I was the one who put their name to shame.
I'm growing old and
I still have my secret untold