Time goes by,
It still feels like it happened yesterday,
I laugh and have a good time,
But I'm afraid it's only a front,
I tell everyone I'm doing just fine,
But in reality,
No words can explain what's going on inside,
My life has become nothing but a blur,
It is nothing like I planned,
One unexpected event after another,
I ask myself how I'm going to get past the next,
Telling myself I need to be strong,
Not just for me,
but for those around me,
Trying in the process not to fall back,
back into the hole,
I tried so hard to keep myself out of,
Time goes by,
I feel lost, confused, and lonely,
I'm in pain, like a knife has pierced through my heart,
That once took each beat in stride,
Heart feels weaker,
I told myself I can get through anything,
My eyes wander from one place to another,
Listening and watching those around me,
Kids laughing, nothing can ever faze them,
If only one person could predict,
The following stage of their life,
Wanting so desperately to to dream sweetly,
To dream of anything,
but of what happened that early day of February,
Wanting that dream to leave,
To mean nothing at all to me,
I want the memories to be just that,
Looking at the woman in the photos,
I see a little bit of myself in her,
It's weird how I can still hear her say,
Time heals all wounds,
If I only knew if it were really true....
