Letting You Go

Some say love is blind, sometimes even deaf
Truth is, love isn't blind or deaf
I just closed my eyes to things I didn't want to see
And didn't listen to what my heart was telling me

Ever since the last time we broke up
I vowed to never take you back again
No matter how hard it will be
I can't allow myself to give in

So for ten months I had to force a smile on my face
And pretend I was doing fine
Holding back the pain and the tears
Letting go of what used to be mine

I tried to forget everything that happened
And get my life back on track
Not knowing where I'd find the strength
To move on without looking back

It was hell to go to sleep every night
Just to wake up to another morning without you
Knowing that I'll never be in your arms again
Because you've replaced me with someone new

It's as if everytime I try to leave it all behind
You come back in my life once again
And I find myself giving in
Going back to where it all began

Knowing the risk I was taking
Would have a high price to pay in the end
Still I thought I'd give it one more shot
So that later I wouldn't have to wonder what could've been

I gave you the benefit of the doubt and you still let me down
I guess I just had to let you hurt me once more
So that I can walk away with a clear conscious knowing I gave it my all
And what was to come next wasn't my call

It's funny how I was always the one that said
I would never put up with a guy like you
Yet I ended up being that girl
Who still wanted you despite everything you put me through

I got used to the tears, the pain, and the lies
As a matter of fact, I got used to it all
From being betrayed to taking the blame
To being ignored each time I called

I guess that's what's so amazing about your first
They can put you through hell and yet you find yourself still holding on to them
Because the fear of losing them outweighs the strength
To let them go and move on to someone else

My mind can't forget but my heart can forgive
For all the hurtful things that you said and did
As much as it hurts to let you go, I hope you find your happiness
Even if that happiness means I won't be a part of it

All that's left are photograghs and memories of the past
Each day spent with you were just moments not meant to last
Though it breaks my heart to know that you're gone
I know I'll get through this and eventually move on

Everyday I tell myself I'm stronger
Because I've gone one more day without you
No more looking back and thinking of how things used to be
It's clear that me and you just weren't meant to be

I thought I'd never get through this heartache
But eventually the pain subsided
Now I'm looking forward to a new beginning
But not with the eyes that you once blinded

You were just a fairytale without a happy ending
A dream that wouldn't come true
A prayer that would never be answered
A memory is all I have left of you.