What do you say to someone who has told you your stupid, your worthless, your nothing but another screwed up child. I don't know what to say to that. I don't even think there is a response. Why would anyone want to put down their own child? Do they think that it makes them feel better? Does it make them think, "Hey, i know how to push her buttons." But to me, this is something that makes me want to just cut. Cut till the end of time. Yeah sure i have a boyfriend. yeah sure i have friends who care. But do they see what goes on at home? Do you think they want to know? Yes they may want to know. But they won't be able to make everything all better. It's like i should just leave. Leave and never come back. I want to just leave this horrible life iv been put into. Live a free and non abusive life. Well that can't change. So all I'm left with is cutting. Cutting theses wrists/arms and make them bleed. Get all the stress and anger out until i can't feel the pain anymore. then move to a different place to make more pain to get rid of the pain i have inside that iv been treated with. Maybe one day ill realize I'm not fat. I'm not ugly, I'm not worthless, I'm not stupid. Well that will be a day where everything is perfect. No more living in hell.
