Hurt from abuse

The ways that I've been treated
haunts me in my head
you took me from my family
then left me for dead

Now I'm picking up the peaces
of an undesired love
renewing old relationships
that you forced me to shove

I'm blind for not leaving
when your need became assault
when sex was more a chore
and everything was my fault

jealousy wasn't allowed
to you depression was my "excuse"
cheating was OK
and so was every bruise

there wasn't any us
it was always just you
i don't know why i stuck around
when i look back at what you threw