Enough

Such pain is confusion, the wall is up,
I'm ashamed of who you are.
If I fake one more laugh I think I'll erupt.
But I'm scared to cut open this scar.

Alone with my thoughts is where you sit,
Do I have what it takes to go?
I've left before but this is it,
So get used to the afterglow.

I question if I'm ready,
If it's right to turn this page.
In front of you I'm steady,
But inside I'm enraged.

I've been well equipped for danger,
Ever since you turned from God.
Forced to love a stranger,
So I caused it? All that's flawed?

I love you so I clean your mess,
I explain what you "didn't mean".
I sadly watch the sweet finesse,
The torch on gasoline.

I'm waiting for the third degree,
I jump when embers fly.
I'm used to this? What's wrong with me?
I'm responsible for your lie?

Strength in wisdom, a leap of faith,
And life for you's been rough.
But I accept what is our fate,
Because I know when enough's enough.