Untitled 02.18.10

Keep this secret stuck between your teeth so that nothing ever comes of it. I want nothing more than the power to erase whatever it was that took place. Unfortunately, life isn't so generous. This is all relentless, and no matter how many times you close those beautiful eyes, it will always be reality. I could feel myself losing control at the speed of light. There's a time and a place for everything but no one ever said that there was a catch. I guess all of those secrets you've been keeping ended up getting spilled along with that glass of wine on your bedroom floor. I'd love to tell you that you look so peaceful when you sleep, but that would be nothing more than a bold faced lie. It's hard for someone like me to not see through that smile. I've learned that assuming never gets anyone anywhere. Normal people like you and I can't just make conjectures and rest easy. Problem solving was never my best skill. I've always had to second guess everything. But I've never come to a situation in which that flaw seems to benefit me. In no way am I saying now that it does, but it'd be silly of me to deny it the credit which it deserves. I doubt these words are making much sense to you, but I don't feel like lowering myself to put things in simple text. I'd much rather use all kinds of writing tricks to fool you out of thinking I care. While some people would think that this is a plea, it's much closer to a hope of condemnation. I'm not spiteful, but I think everyone deserves an ego check every once in a while. Once the angry phase is over, I'll swallow my dignity and make some progress. But until then, I can wish for nothing more than your shallow dreams to haunt you as much as they've haunted me.