Don't Lie to Yourself

Do you think I don't notice how you treat me?
Your words like daggers deep within my chest
Your ignorant taunt hangs above my heavey head

I pretend I don't care but really, who am I kidding?
I guess the correct answer would be myself
But how can somebody ignore something like this?

You treat me like a freaking disease
What did I ever do to you, please let me know
I don't know why you still make me cry,

I feel so stupid and weak but i still can't speak,
Of what kind of hell you have put me though
These past years have been so bad, its scary

And you don't give a damnn, that you made it hell
But its OK, because you hate is making me stronger
Maybe next time this happens I will hold on longer

But if I don't get thought this don't fret about me
Cause I honestly don't want to be here anymore
I'm not crazy or phyco, I just want out

Everyone says hold on and look on the bright side
But is answer hold on to what? And what bright side?
I am nothing anymore, but and empty box of thought

In my depression I begin to rot in my tears
I'm sorry you can't stand the sight of my face
Am I really that ugly that you can't look at me?

Just today in the hall you hid you face with a book,
And all I did was walk by you, I didn't say a word
Yes, I admit it, even I get hurt sometimes

And when it happens so much it builds up,
I'm afraid that one day I might just explode
So now I always tell my self the same true words
"Don't lie to yourself, your nothing, and no one will ever actually want you."