What i wish to say

There are many things I wish to say. Some which are too late to be spoken others that should be said today. But I keep my mouth shut and my emotions closed to keep others happy in their own lives. The hurt and desperation of my emotions is almost too much to handle. I wish for an escape from the world I feel which I am not connected to, an escape from the people I once trusted and liked, an escape from a town which hold to many memories to stand, an escape to a better life which I can renew as my own. As if vanishing from the place thats left to many wounds on my young life would leave my mind and been forgotten. But as I grow older and the experiences stay with me I understand that I am more prepared for life than others who have life handed to them on a silver platter rather than work for what they hope and dream for. Instead of been shown weak and defeated, Ive grown strong and endured the difficulties thats been thrown at me. So the hurt I have endured from my emotions, the words that havent been said over the years, and the memories that have yet to faded, have in the end help my journey through life.