Impulse

His body covers me completely,
his heat surrounds my soul,
his love is one that feeds me,
he makes my broken pieces whole.

Our naked flesh is one skin,
my heart pounds in my broken chest,
and the layers of my heart wear thin,
these four walls make me stressed.

He tries to own my lips, I pull away,
he looks into my eyes, which are so Gray
and everything about this feels so wrong indeed,
and his final kiss bursts through me in such greed.

He caresses my hair, I think of you,
he kisses me all over, they bleed right through,
he whispers in my ear, I don't hear a sound,
I think in sin when you're not around.

I think of you more immensely as his lips wander,
think of the love we shared, it's that I ponder.
I think of all you meant to me, and more,
and I barely notice as this other man
gets up and shuts the door.

He comes back in, I'm so dazed,
his hands are cold, my eyes still hazed,
visions of me and you pass through my mind,
I think about you obsessively all the time.

He means nothing, if you could only see,
I feel nothing, when he is on top of me.
He walks around, yet I can't tell,
these thoughts of you hold my spell.

As his fingers wander, to me it's you,
and they are stuck to me as if there glue
his lips, his eyes, they are yours now to me.
and as I'm touched it's you I see.

What went wrong, why aren't you holding me, I'm lost,
with this other man I yearn for you at all cost.
Are you thinking of me this instant? Are you longing to?
Or is it just me that wishes this other man were you?

I can't forget you, I hold on,
at every touch I know you're gone,
I think of all you meant to me and more,
and I barely notice as this other man
gets up and shuts the door.