Sorry filled cries

I'm sorry, I'm so sorry; it's all that I say in mind
I've completely forgotten how to leave my past behind
It's tormenting me, toying with me, making me scared
It's affecting me to the point I forgot how to care
I don't remember how to do this, to keep it real
Instead my fears are keeping me from showing how I feel
I'm sorry, I'm so sorry; this is not like me at all
To disappoint, to fail, to lose my footing and fall
Now that I've made my mistakes, it's time to get it together
I want to prove to you, I can make this last forever
Is my heart even inside me? There's this black, hurtful hole
Because without you I'm so lonely, my insides feel so cold
My tears like waves, climbing up my eyelids, and crashing down my cheeks
This is how I've been for days and it looks like it's turning into weeks
I'm sorry, I'm so sorry...what is it going to take
To win you back, become so happy, release this heartache
I can't stand to be around anyone, my whole focus is on you
But you're not around; I'm by myself in this empty, dark room
So here I lay again, my tears fall down like rain
I can't even get up to move to try to ease some of this pain
I'm sorry, I'm so sorry...I hope I can make you see
I am who you thought I was, I'm willing to be the real me