Self Sabatoge

I never really thought about
The person Id become
The nights Id spend alone
The feelings growing numb

I guess I always knew
Id never get set free
Locked up inside this pain
Not knowing who to be

Its sad to think you loved me
Its sad to think you cared
Cause now I'm living lies
My heart will not be spared

All that you ever were
Is who you'll always be
In this sanctioned solitude
Your face forever haunts me

Lying cold and crippled
Countless tears are shed
Inside this lifeless body
I'm already dead

The screams are never ending
The fear is all too real
Forget about what could have been
When pain is all I feel

Tasteless memories
Forgotten smile
I kill the thoughts of you
The ones most vile

Fate has led me here
This place I cant escape
Crawling from the depths
My hate now taking shape

Becoming someones fool
Nothing left to give
Losing sight of meaning
In this life I live

My lies are shameless
As I fall into this hole
No one to ease my sorrow
No one to save my soul

The choices that I made
I can not take back
Fight this dim existence
My world is turning black

The people that I love
Are the ones I hurt the most
Careless in my ways
Searching for some comfort

Grasp what isn't real
Life now fading fast
Living in the moment
Cant seem to make it last