Untraceable Pain

Blood stains now cover my bedroom.
It drips and beats the floor like a constant rain.
Nobody to stop me from the cuts.
And nobody to take away all of my pain.

The razor blade nobody will notice missing.
Pressed with force against my arm.
It seems to take away the emotional pain.
I never thought i would cause myself harm.

I'm so good at hiding the pain so well.
Nobody able to tell that I'm consumed.
This sadness is hidden so no one can tell.
And its just me and my pain in my bedroom.

But I cant take the pain any longer.
I know that the scars will show.
My secret is able to be let loose.
And the whole world will soon know.

The pain has been as strong as ever.
A pain tearing at me through my heart.
Drowning in my tears that roll down my face.
Wondering when i will stop falling apart.

I feel like I'm about to lose control.
I'm about to have to lose it all.
I don't know how long I can carry on.
Constantly hitting this brick wall.

I might just end it all tonight.
I have the gun in my right hand.
No one wanted it to end up this way.
But I hope that you all can understand.

I want to end it all so bad.
I can almost hear the gun sound.
I wouldn't have to take the pain.
And I wouldn't have to sit and drown.

I really need someone to hear my cry.
And take me under their wing tonight.
It gets harder every second that I try.
I am overwhelmed and about to lose my fight.

But nobody can see that I constantly suffer.
They don't know my life went down the drain.
Its hard to see hidden behind this fake smile.
I just need someone to notice this untraceable pain.