Inadequacy, insufficiency
The absence of a demanding overlooked component more
Lies within me, unnoticed by many, but for you its prominent at core.
What could I give to you, for you to see?
That you complete that missing part of me?
What do I have to do, to keep your heart for eternity?
Please inform me of my everlasting deficiency.
All I want is for you to be in my life,
For us to walk this path, for me to be your wife.
I collect the pieces, parts of me that you broke down
Yet I can't function, without you around.
You are my heart, you are my soul, and I will forever be faithful to you
My mind turns to static when you hurt me so terribly,
Yet you are the only one able to correct my everlasting deficiency.
If I could only take your spirit with me
When you are gone,
Maybe if I had done things differently,
Maybe to you, I would have shone.
What is wrong with me, my pale blue eyes?
What is wrong with me, my deficiencies spill out in cries?
What can I do, to change, to morph into what you really want?
Why with our love, must you constantly taunt?
The pain you give me is building, taring me apart
Its ripping me up inside, its exploding my heart.
The pain is real, the love was real,
Deep down I hope somewhere you feel.
Like a freshly cut rose, that was once intriguing and beautiful
Is now withered and ugly, a brutal mess
And you ignore me, and leave me without mercy or will
You cause me such constant distress.
So all of this, everything has a sum in its whole,
The sum is extravagantly lacking,
The true love you found, was not in my soul,
On my heart, your sharp blade was attacking.
I love you, I love you, and the love cannot fade,
For it's buried so far deep down into my core
So far in fact, that it is a part of who I am
The presence of you always leaves me wanting more.
I'm crazy; I'm crazy, so crazy in love with you,
That I could not explain it, not ever
So in love, in fact, that you don't have the slightest clue
But with my deficiencies you'll leave me forever.
Who is the one girl that could tame your love,
Tame it, control it, ignite it,
Wish I had her gifts, sent from way up above,
But I know it's not I who will light it.
If you want the caterpillar, I could be her,
If you want the butterfly, I'll try to grow wings,
But I know that this love is not working,
And I've exhausted way too many things.
If you want a smart girl, I could try it,
If you want a seductress, tell me your sweet wish
If you want adventure, I don't have to buy it,
I could give you it all in one kiss.
So maybe my flaws, limit your love,
But maybe it's not my deficiencies at all,
Maybe you just fell out of love,
And maybe your heart is still in fall.
You use to want to be my world,
I'm weak without you near,
I'll change, I'll change, and I'll change for you,
My love aches so severe.
My broken heart, our broken love,
Sorry I could not fill my promised guarantees,
Continue your life, while I rot and ponder,
My many everlasting deficiencies.
