You see sometimes, I am happy, I smile, I laugh
And you can bet; it's real
Sometimes i feel like i am on top of the world, and no one can do anything to bring me down.
Sometimes this feeling last a minute, sometime it lasts a week...
The thing about depression is; the cycle doesn't break.
One day this month I might feel like there's nothing left... like I am stuck in this loneliness.
I'll be fine again for a little while, thinking maybe life's worthwhile.
Then it hits again, the unavoidable, the unexplainable pain...
And maybe this time it's last 2 days, maybe 2 months, I'll awake every day needing a reason to stay.
Needing reassurance that it's the depression... not me! that it's the disease stealing my glee.
It's not that i have had a bad life.
i have been lucky to have seen little strife.
it's not that i am really lonely, or feel like no one cares for me.
depression isn't a reality
It come and goes...
it's in my brain
it's simply chemically
imbalanced
I've lived all my years having to deal with this
It's a part of my family... i inherited it!
the trick is to recognize it, to realize it's, not you!
I know this feeling, you can tell when it's creeping up on you...
I know that it sucks
I know you don't wanna give a f^c|<
I know death may seem like the only way out
I know you want to scream ad shout
I know your lonely and there is nothing left.
I know it's not you and your trying your best
i know that you don't want to go to school
But you can't call in sick it's against the rules
I know that every word hurts
no matter what people say the depression converts
it into something negative
and you've got nothing left to give.
