WHAT HAPPENS TO SOMEONE WHO LOSES EVERYTHING THAT EVEN GOD WASN'T ABLE TO FIX THIS
SHE COMPLETELY LOST ALL FAITH AND BELIEF IN HER GOD THAT TO HER, HE NO LONGER EXISTED
SHE IS NOW CONVINCED THAT THIS IMAGINARY PERSON EVERYONE SEEMS TO BELIEVE IN IS NOT REAL
IF HE WAS, THEN WHY WOULD HE PERMANENTLY SCAR HER HEART THAT WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO HEAL
YOU COULD ONLY DO SO MUCH TO KEEP HER HEAD UP BUT THE PAIN WILL ALWAYS BE THERE REGARDLESS
IT KILLS ME HAVING TO WITNESS THIS PERSON WHO I CARE DEEPLY ABOUT CONTINUE TO WALK AROUND HEARTLESS
PEOPLE HAVE ALWAYS SAID TO NEVER JUDGE THE LORD'S DECISIONS WHEN HE DECIDES IT'S A PERSON'S TIME
BUT SCREW THAT WHY NOT AT LEAST CHALLENGE THE LORD HIMSELF TO WHY HE CHOSE TO TAKE THAT PERSON'S LIFE
IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE TO ME WHAT SO EVER HOW HE CAN PUT HER IN SO MUCH PAIN THAT GOD COULDN'T EVEN RELATE TO
YEAH HE GOT CRUCIFIED, BUT THE PHYSICAL PAIN DOES NOT COME CLOSE TO THE EMOTIONAL PAIN THAT SHE GOES THROUGH
I UNDERSTAND HE DIED FOR ALL OF US, BUT HE HUNG ON THAT CROSS FOR A COUPLE OF HOURS THE MOST
SHE HAS BARELY HELD ON TO LIFE FOR MANY YEARS THAT HER SLIPPING AWAY FROM US HAS CAME CLOSE
THIS PERSONALLY MAKES ME QUESTION MY FAITH IN GOD BECAUSE OF THIS CHOICE THAT HE MADE
I WONDER HOW GOD WOULD HAVE TAKEN IT IF HE DIDN'T HAVE HIS MOTHER FOR AT LEAST ONE DAY
JUST TO FEEL A SMALL FRACTION OF THE PAIN SHE HAD TO DEAL WITH FOR MORE THAN HALF OF HER LIFE
HOW BAD DO YOU THINK IT KILLS HER HAVING TO WAKE UP WITHOUT HER MOM EVERYDAY OF HER LIFE
DO I BLAME HER FOR NOT BELIEVING IN GOD, NOT AT ALL BECAUSE I WOULD BE A HYPOCRITE IF I SAID I STILL WOULD BELIEVE
BECAUSE IF THAT WAS ME, I WOULD BE CONVINCED THAT THERE AIN'T NO PERSON IN WHITE UP THERE LOOKING DOWN ON ME
EVEN IF I WAS TO GO TO HELL AFTER ALL THIS CRAP, SCREW IT LET IT BE THEN
JUST KNOW I HAD THE BALLS TO STAND UP TO HIM IN WHAT I BELIEVE IN
