Wish You Never Gave Up

I hate this. I hate what's become of us.
I hate having to stop myself from making a fuss.
We were best friends who almost were more.
Why can't we talk? Oh yea, you're dating that wh0re..
She was my friend too. It bothers me, can't you see?
i thought you auctually cared. I guess the joke's on me..
I know I hurt you. I know I pushed you away.
I know there's many things I could never say.
But I did all I could to spare you from any pain.
I just wanted you to smile, secretly hoping you were insane.
Insane enough to auctually love me and always be there.
Even if it killed you, I'd wish you would always care.
I'd wish you'd keep chasing, until we could finally be.
Until he was long in my past, nowhere I could see.
But you proved me right instead, and never realized,
All the pain behind all my fake smiles and lies.
You walked away and let me go, without a second glance.
I watched alone, wanting to cry, knowing there was no chance.
You love her, cherish her, want her. I can see,
Tell me, did you ever bother to think of me?
My heart was broken and only broke more
Whenyou stopped being my friend, when you shut the door.
I needed to smile, to laugh, just needed to be hugged.
Why weren't you ever there? I needed my antidrug..
Why aren't you here anymore? Is it because of her?
I've given up so much for you. I care more for sure..
But you don't see it. No, you never ever see
Past the front I put up, inside to the real me.
The one that's in pain, the one that's alone.
Who wishes you'd never given up on her, or the feelings shown.
If anything, I wish we could talk once again.
I need to laugh, to smile. I need a good friend..