I Still...

I still wonder every single night,
How could you go through it, without me?
I still wish that you would finally,
Break the spell and set me free.

I still cry myself to sleep,
Every night, on my bed.
I still dream of your return,
Making me smile, instead.

I still wake up every morning,
With tears filling my eyes.
I still remember the last time I saw you,
Your last "I love you" as we say our goodbyes

I still see you everywhere,
Smelling your scent, feeling your touch.
I still can't believe you're really gone,
Listen to me, I need you so much

I still picture our future,
You and me as husband and wife.
I still see you as my everything,
Without you, I don't want this life.

I still think of not having you here,
And I find myself falling to the ground.
I still picture my life without you,
And I can't even breathe, can't make a sound.

I still want to know how much longer,
Would I be able to deal with this pain?
I still wonder could everything be alright,
Would I ever see myself smiling again?

I still remember everything about you,
Every detail, I can't erase.
I still remember that rainy day,
The way you comfort me and that look on your face.

I still hold your teddy bear,
Close to my broken heart.
I still don't know how to cope,
When deep inside, I'm all torn apart.

I still cry whenever I remember,
That you would leave me to another.
I still wonder could we ever find, a love like ours,
A love so strong, a love like no other.

I still miss you when something good happen,
Cause I know that if you were here, I would smile.
I still miss you when something bad happen,
Cause I know that you would make everything worthwhile.

I still write down things to you,
Talking with you whenever I need.
I still say to myself, I'm fine,
But in the inside, I constantly bleed.

I still smile when I hear your voice,
But then tears always follow.
I still can't believe you're really gone,
I can't bare another lonely tomorrow.

I still tell you how much I love you,
"I miss you" I keep whispering in the phone.
I still try to make you feel I'm not hurting,
I hang up and realize, from now on I'm all alone.

I still miss every word I used to tell you,
And I wonder if you miss it too.
I still wonder have you ever realize,
I would have given up my life for you.

I still wonder have I ever told you,
To be with you, I would give up anything.
I still don't know if you know,
Through you, I knew everything.

I still ask myself should I disappear,
Would it be better for you, if I stayed away?
I still wonder if you know that your voice,
Is the only thing that helps me to go through another day?

I still do everything you wanted me to,
I swear,everything...except the frown.
I still behave to match your expectations,
I don't want to ever let you down.

I still pray for your happiness,
I do really wish you all the best.
I still see you as one of a kind,
You're so unique, nothing like the rest.

I still need you, to make me stronger,
I need you, to be able to live.
I still need all your kindness, all your care,
All the power, to me you used to give.

I still can't deny, the fact that i can't do it,
I'm not that strong, not anymore.
I still love you...No I can't forget,
And it just breaks me, every second a bit more.

I still can't move on,
Honestly, I don't want to let go.
I still hold on to your memories,
Cause, you are all that I know.