Message in A Bottle ..

I closed my eyes...
and counted to 10 ..
20 ..
50 ..
100...
I said ur name slowly ...
smiling with every letter ..
i turned around..
you weren't there...
where are you ??
Im waiting for you ..
Im calling out ur name ..
I am alone now in this strange world..
cant you feel it ??
cant you see it ??

I am waiting for you because your presence is my rescue ..
Stop hurting me everyday by ur silence ..
stop crushing me into pieces by not reading my eyes..
stop showing up ..cause it kills me to hold it inside..
hold the fact that I am deeply in love with you ..
cant you see it ??
I cant believe you ..
I wish you had a super vision power to see right through my heart ..
and realize how much It is hurt without you ..
how much it questions me everyday ..

what If it happened ?
what if you knew ..
what if you knew that i once loved you ..
would you stay in that silence mode and kill me slowly ?
or will you ...
will you ask me to come into your life ?
what if you hurt me ?
what if you made me bleed ?
what if you step on my heart and just simply walk away ...?
what if ..
what if you just leave ...
leave me without anything ..but the remaining memories ...
and just let me fall down ..
and collapse ..
would it even matter to you ??
would it make a difference ?

I wish I knew...
Still I am standing in the same place ...
I dont know what i was waiting for ..
cause it looks like im going to wait for too long...
i wrote you a message in a bottle ..
come and find me ..
come and fix me ..
come and change my life ..
come and shine in my life..
come and just be in my life ...

I will not be waiting for too long ..
for my heart is bleeding and crying everyday ..waiting for your return ...
your time is limited ..
for my heart will be dead as soon as you arrive ...
it will be gone ...
and re-newed ..by another person ..
another man ..
who appreciates me more than you do..
and realizes that i exist without me giving him any signals ..
and is thankful for everyday i exist ...

Your Unrevealed truth ...
Me
I threw the bottle in the ocean..
with tears in my eyes..
I walked away..