Forever in a place of pain
forever in a place of darkness
i can scream but it's silent
i can cry but no one will see the tears trickle down
i could o.d on pills
but no one will ever find me
i could claw my heart out
but no blood will show
i thought that my heart was plain to see
but i guess it's invisible,as i am growing to become
the pain consumes me,& i thought it'd be different
but i see it's not,i see it's just a joke
& now i have to live with it,this time it's my fault
but why?
i don't know where i went wrong,i don't know why i feel so deep
why do i do this to myself?
why should i even try?
i feel useless,the cold is growing,
that i can barely feel my heart beat,
my breath is shallow,but no matter what i do
this always seems to happen to me...
my fears,my gut,were all right
why didn't i ever listen to what the voices tell me?
when deep down I know they are always right.
death feels so right,its within a grasp,but when i say goodbye,
I'll let it all be forgiven,& forgotten,as it'll be my time to go..
my time to give up completely,but right now it's not my time.....
