I cant change things around me
I cant control what other people do
My life i feel isolated
I cant help what i do
I cant get back what i once had
I don't want to change the past
It would be to hard to get were i am today
I wish i could just go back in time and get answers
Answers why my family never loved me
Why do they have to hurt me so much?
They always left it up to other people to raise me
Now I'm on my own
Every direction i take
Its getting more confusing
Will someone stay in my life forever?
I am sad
I am hurt
Everyday i don't want to make it through another day
Pretending i dint care, when i love them so much
I'm not even sure why
I want to let go
But my heart isn't letting me
I feel so small
In a world so big and cold
I get misunderstood alot
Theres no words i can say to explain
I cant cry anymore
I am numb
I feel empty
Like a lost soul
Trying to find peace
They say it takes one person to turn your world around
I believed this
THen they let me down
Im trying to trust
Somehow i cant stop holding back
People talk to me about the future
I try to block it out
I dont want to think of another day
I dont want to see where my life will take me
I am to terrified
As I'm growing
I'm more afraid
I can find where i belong
I don't feel wanted or loved
Everywhere i go isn't home
My issue's are controlling my life
I cant stand it!!!
I want it all to go away
Trying to fight them is in-possible
So why even try?
Its been so long sense i talked
Its getting darker
Not even sure what i want anymore
So for now i need to realize
People lie
Things will always stay the came
